so stupid…anyone who read my letter to my mom, knows how important Adia German is to me. I was an idiot tonight. She wanted to surprise me with something, and I asked and asked her what it was. She kept on telling me I’d like it, I believed her, I just really wanted to know. Anyway a day passed and I’d sort of come to terms with the fact that she wasn’t going to tell me, but I decided to ask anyway, just to see the reaction it would get from her. She told me she wasn’t going to tell me, but I asked again, finally she gave in and told me. She was heartbroken that she couldn’t give me just this one surprise and I realized that the joy you get form giving someone a surprise you know they will love is great, and I ruined that. I feel terrible. I really can’t believe that I am so stupid. I ruined this perfect surprise, and for what? Nothing. Not to metion that I could lose the woman in my life that I know that I want to spend the rest of my life with, over something that is going to be good for me? See, stupid.
I love you Adia Simone and I am terribly sorry.
Realization for today…Don’t look a gift horse in the mouth, it will bite back, hard.
<3 Adia
February 5, 2009 at 9:27 am
You wouldn’t lose me over something like that.
I just wish that you would let me surprise you… =|
February 5, 2009 at 8:44 pm
Phillip,
You’re smarter than the average bear already–you learned from your mistake. That’s all any girl wants. That’s how you grow in relationships–you screw up and learn, screw up and learn. Just don’t keep screwing up the same way every time. If you do, then you aren’t learning.
February 5, 2009 at 9:26 pm
In Soviet Russia, you bite gift horse!